On May 1st I went back to my job I had before Hansen was born. It is a really easy job and I don't have to think too hard or do any customer service, which is very stressful to me. Then the next monday I started babysitting my niece for my brother. I do that two days a week for 8 hours. I work at my job for 5 hours two days a week. I went from an everyday mom with just Hansen and I to a working mom who has to figure out how to get things done now that there is more stress on my time. It keeps me busy and helps me remember that all things pass and one day I won't have to work. I want to go to school and learn foreign languages. I think other languages are so interesting and I think it would make me feel better about myself to have a skill like that. Hans was so sweet on Mother's Day. He got me two books. One is called Horse Miracles, it has inspirational stories about horses and how they protect the people they love and who love them. The other book is called Horsekeeping on a small acreage. It was very thoughtful of him to get this book for me because it proves that he listens to me when I talk about what my dream in life is and that he wants me to be able to accomplish it one day. I want to have horses of my own and possibly have a place where I can board horses for other people. I feel like myself when I am with these majestic animals. I feel so at peace when I can spend time with a being that is so nonjudgmental and who enjoys my company. I also get this peaceful feeling when I am with family and good friends. I want everyone that I know and love to remember that nothing, not even a horse could replace the love I feel from you. I cherish our time together. I just have this dream to be with horses too. I think we all know that dreams are what keep us going in this sometimes monotonous and challenging life. If we didn't have dreams then who would we be?
